I’m not all that happy with my job today. Some days I am treated like a member of the management team and others I am excluded and relagated to underling status. Maybe because of the amount of work there was they had no choice but to lean on me. Now that things are evening out, I am back in the shadows at least for today. It isn’t sitting well with me.
This is what happens when you bend yourself backwards and make yourself “invaluable.” Though you never truelly are invaulable and are always expendable, they now expect that amount of involvement from you. The company doesn’t really care, they get their 8 hours, they get their TPS report with the correct cover sheet. Everything else is just white noise.
I don’t know where I stand and it is frustrating.
I was just called by a head hunter and yet my intial knee jerk reaction was to say that I was very happy here and not interested.
Am I really happy? Is today just an off day?
Things to think over for sure.
There are days when I find myself wishing Erich made enough money for me to stay home and have another Baby. I find myself thinking about having another baby alot as of late. It would be nice to have another child. I never really imagined myself as a single child parent. And then the reality of my situation sinks in. I work full time, we would have to put the baby in childcare at least 3 days a week. I don’t really want to have to do that. All that time that we would miss with that child, I makes me think twice for sure. And then I worry about the commitment a baby and a full time job would be. It was a task when I was a Stay at Home Mom, how will I manage with a full time job. Would it be fair to Amelia and the baby? I wouldn’t be able to devote the time and attention that I wanted to them both.
Would Erich step up? Somehow I doubt it. He can’t manage to get Amelia out of her Pajamas on his days off, how would be be able to juggle a baby. Plus he keeps saying that he wants to go to third shift, and I know we wouldn’t survive that. It’s difficult enough the way it is.
Is anyone 100% in love with their job, everyday? I think it’s just an off day. I need a little victory to get myself going. Time to put nose to grindstone and quite whining, because after all I have it really good already.
