Knome Sandwich

I’ve been skulking, sitting around in my cave being ant-social. Today I forced myself out to a play date. Amelia had a lot of fun and it was good to get out and interact with adults.

I’ve been doing some soul searching these past few days. Erich and I talk through the night and into the early morning on what we want to do and be and where we are going. It’s been great the way we’ve been communicating. Actually, it’s been enlightening in quite a few ways.

One thing I have realized is that there is a lot that I still want to do. I want to be a freer spirit than I have been. Translate that how you wish, but there is a lot out there that I have yet to do and I’ve made the decision that it is time that I do it. Things like extending my tattoos even if that make them visible. Because that would make me happy. Also Working at a place that I want to work at, instead of settling.

So what does that mean? I’m still working it all out. I’m thinking of this as a catharsis. Maybe it’s because I’m finally okay with myself in what ever shape or form that I’m in these days. Maybe I really don’t care what everyone else thinks anymore. To quote..”I was voted most confident in my low self-esteem group” (I find that one funny to no end)… [image courtesy of http://www.flickr.com/photos/feanne/]

So what am I going to do now? Well here are some steps I’m taking in the next few months in no particular order

1. Put Condo up for sale and find a rental in an area we like near people we like.
2. Help Erich find a job he likes, ditto Ally
3. Find good tattoo artist and start designing back piece
4. Reduce clutter in life…

I can’t describe what I’m going through, except it’s like waking up one morning and realizing that you are living someone else’s life. Is that weird? It looks weird re-reading but I’m not worried. It feels pretty good actually.

~ by allykat on May 15, 2008.